New Years food for thought

For me this year has been nothing short of crazy. In fact bipolar is a better description to characterise my last year in the first decade of the millennia. Why?

Ok so here are some of the highs:

• In the beginning of the year I was in Washington DC to witness Barack Obama’s inauguration
• After a year of being confused about life I finally began to move forward in a direction I was happy and content with.
• I’ve met so many amazing and influential people in my field of study whom are supportive and act like mentors towards me. Their advice has become invaluable.
• In May I went to Ghana (My place of origin) where I hadn’t visited for 13 years. It was a life changing and beautiful experience.
• I was offered a place on the Masters course that I desired at a top London university and subsequently accepted, and am enjoying every moment of it.
• I was able to get rid of the last aspects of negative people (person) in my life whom was just clogging up positive energy. And i feel much better because of it!
• After getting that thorn out of my ass I have physically seen a shift in the amount of positive people I have around me and how much more positive I feel. Best friendship detox decision I ever made (only sad I didn’t do it much sooner).

Lows

• I’m not one to harp on about self pity etc etc. In fact it is something I loathe. But we are all human and all go through various stages in our lives. So I started of this year depressed, in self pity and unsure about life in general L blah blah blah (I’m out of the state now).
• My mother was diagnosed with cancer in the summer. Devastating at first, but the Drs caught it in time and she is full of health. To see her six months on you would never know (a negative that turned into a positive).
• My auntie (a very close friend of my mum’s) passed away unexpectedly on Boxing Day. What was startling was that two weeks prior my mother and she were at a party where she was full of health. A week later she just collapsed... the Drs Still cannot explain it.

So this year for me has been happy on one extreme and sad on the other extreme. But the overpowering message that I learnt that life should not be taken for granted. I do not know what the next year will bring, or the next decade for that fact... but what I do know for certain is their will be many more rollercoaster experiences and many more unexpected moments. But when it is all said and done, when we have to confront our reflection... what will we say? That I lived in the shadow of my problems, or with each problem, with each knockback I arose like the sun?

I know what side I want to be... Do you?

Food for thought... Happy New YearsJ,

xx